Instead of Homework,

I resort to music and blogging.

Today was much of the same as Monday had been. Monotonous, dull.
Now, I don't want to be a complete wrist-slasher and write about my feelings and gay shit like that. Although the past couple of days had been for the worst, I really can't do anything about it.
So instead, I'd like to point out the enjoyable parts of the last several days.

Chillen at Sieghart
You already know how that goes. Couple bottles of 40 ounces and friends. Some major chillen there.
Oh, and I cut my hair today. Hella uneven tho.. It's nothing a couple months can't fix tho.
Mel's birthday in 2 days.
Haha, you already know wsup with that.
Thirsty Thursdays quenched with endless bottles.
laaaaaaaaaaaaate!

ps.
I don't know how I should be handling this situation.
It's overwhelmingly difficult when I am nonexistent, not for a lack of trying however.
I can't say anything or do anything because the reception is nonexistent as well. So what do you want me to do?
You say I'm selfish for not taking into account that now, I have someone else who I need to care and tell everything to. However, don't you think that you're being selfish as well? Communication is key...
How bad do you want me to feel before you let up?
Is that your way of dealing with this.
Because if it is, I can't take it anymore.
I've already tried numerously to reach out to you, contact you in several ways.
I suppose I've done my part now.
Your move, love.

Oh you,

Day was wonderful. Although the former part, which I had to spend in school unwillingly, passed by slowly, the latter was wonderful.

You really are something special.
Just being with you makes me smile.
Although you can park a little better in the future when we go out again..
=)

Now onto the gruesome details on what I must complete in the next two hours:
1 Transcendental poster due tomorrow (50 points in the 80% category). Fuck me.
1 complete review on chapter 6 of area, volume, integrals, and shit like that. Fuck me sideways.

As you all can see, my night is basically filled.
Any distraction is welcome, as usual.

Back to Square One

I know I fucked up.
I'm back to square one.
Starting over.

Sorry

I think it's the finally The Time

I'm going to finally make an honest effort to actually quit.
I know I've said in the past that I would, but now, I really have a reason to quit for.
I know it's been empty promise after the other, but it really is time.

Goodbye cigarettes.
Nice knowing ya.

Thoughts pervading my mind

I've been going through a whirlwind of thoughts lately.
Most have been accumulated over the past couple weeks, but there are several that I've thought up recently.

-Smooths or American Spirits?
Smooths have always had a special place in my heart, or more so in my lungs, but Spirits, thanks to Mr. Murphy's countless tangents on healthy cigarettes, I decided to buy my first pack of them today with David. Seems better. I can't really tell except the blaring words typed across the box: 100% additive free. Hmm, seems like the right choice.
-I've got to find a way to ask, and ask soon.
JP is wack and costs hella money, not to mention the wack setting of a mini auditorium...We'll see soon enough.
-Slacking off in school.
This is a major focal point. I've been slacking off like a second-semester senior since the beginning of junior year. Red alert's on. I'm gonna try to actually do something about it and focus more on schoolwork. However, it IS easier said than done...
-Clothing
I need more threads. I feel like my closet is comprised of mostly white tee's and some jeans. Hopefully, my sister decides to ask me to go shopping with her soon. Sounds really gay if I ask her.
-Music is my remedy, my ever-awake friend through the longest nights with homework piled up to the skies.
-I need to quit.
-I have to get in shape. Getting lazier doesn't really help. I'm gonna try going to track consistently from this week on.
-Everything seems to be going the right way with her. Amid the small yet constant bickering, I see and know there is something worthwhile. Most definately.
-SAT's
Must start studying soon once more..
-I have to learn how to save money.

And now, I will answer to my Statistics homework's yells.
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