Trapped Feelings.

Date: 2/25/2009
Colorgenics Number: 42106573

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You are always alert and keenly observant. You are not truly satisfied with your everyday status and you are seeking fresh avenues which can give you the opportunity to prove your worth. You feel that there are still many barriers that stand between you and recognition - but one by one you will overcome them. Your tenacity is your one good point - like an English Bulldog, once you take the bite, you will seldom let go.

Being a somewhat gentle, emotional and sensitive person, you are at this time experiencing a considerable amount of tension. What you really need is someone who can be close to you and to listen to what you have to say.

You give the impression that you are a self-sufficient individual, pretending that you are stoical - indifferent to pain or pleasure. But this is not so, for in truth you are an extremely emotional person, one that may make hasty decisions and perhaps repent at leisure. It is time now perhaps to break the bond of detachment and become the real 'you' - the you that you would like to be.

The unwanted situation in which you presently find yourself is causing you considerable stress and frustration and your feeling is that whatever you try to do to remedy this is to no avail. You feel trapped. You want to get away from it all as you feel that you are banging your head against a brick wall getting nowhere. You have turned your aggression inwards and you are furious with yourself for not being able to achieve your goals. You need to go away, somewhere where there are less restrictions and where you can be free to make your own decisions.

You feel utterly wretched - worn out. The demands that other people have been making on you have depleted your strength and stamina. You feel powerless to try to remedy the situation on your own and you are looking for what is hopefully known as 'divine intervention'. But be assured your salvation lies in yourself - you have the ability so use it.

Well, the Colorgenics test is somewhat right. I do feel stressed to no real sight of the end.
This is bullshit. I wish I knew before this happened that my best friend would be like this. You told me you were fine with it, and that you were over it. But apparently, you're not. It's not like I'm not gonna find out about what you say about this situation because first of all, you're my best friend. How would people not tell me how you're feeling about this? You're stupid not to just confront me. Why are you bringing others into this problem? 

Now that I'm thinking about it, it's not really even a problem. I don't see why I should feel bad. I don't see why she should feel bad. She told me and you that you guys were never, NEVER talking..So why would you make caustic remarks about me to other people when you were never nothing more than just friends with her? If you HAD been talking to her, I woulda backed off, seriously. That'd be hella fucked up of me just to snatch her away like that from your grasp if you guys had been talking. However, that's not the case in this particular situation.

Fuck.

I thought I knew you better than this.